Arise, Shine!

It’s taken me some time to come to terms with the reality of the situation. I’ve had to mull over the issue for many long hours before coming to where I’m at now.

My evaluation of the situation is twofold.

First, I’m honestly really happy that people are now engaging in public debate over the ASLI report issue. The news item needs no introduction, suffice to say that the ASLI figures of Bumiputera equity ownership contradicted the government figures, and BOOM went the explosion in political circles. Needless to say, political power reigned supreme yet again and Mirzan Mahathir, President of ASLI, was pressured into issuing a public statement that tantamounted to apology and retractment of the report.

Now, the demands from various officials to retract a research paper sounds ridiculous because – how do you RETRACT a research finding? You can certainly retract a personal public opinion and statement. But a finding is either true or false. Especially a quantitative one. I’m not saying the figure was accurate, nor am I defending the CPPS (the real authors of the report, not ASLI as a whole). But if the government disagrees with something, the professional thing to do is to say “Your figures are wrong. I’ll prove to you why.”

Instead, they devalue the intelligence of their citizens and give some childish kindergarten-logic answer like “It’s wrong because the government says so”. Yes, perhaps you can please some of the masses that way, (the over-adoring ones lah) but you cannot fool your urban intellectuals… YES MALAYSIANS ACTUALLY DO THINK!!! Surprise, surprise!!

My second response is utmost disappointment with Pak Lah, who in all his innocence convinced his public to “work with me, not for me”, and for us to tell him the truth. I’m so ashamed of this country. This is Malaysia my homeland that I in all sincerity want to Love deeply. If only I am given the chance to. This is the level debates have been reduced to. Is there no pride for truth? No dismay at the rot that eats into the country?

Finally, I have a choice in how I should respond. It can either dampen my spirit and contribute to further disillusionment; OR it can strengthen me in desiring to shine brighter in such dark times. The calling is to be bright when all else looks dim. But I can only do it with other little lights. I plead with my fellow Malaysians (especially my peers) to journey together with me. It is only when collectively, people start caring for the world outside themselves, that I can consider this worth my while.

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Clipped Wings

If you have a pair of clipped wings, do you still have the freedom to fly?

In a song I wrote some time ago, I said

“Clipped wings are not wings at all,

Try to fly babe and you will fall,

Who cut your feathers when you were asleep, what made you think them real?

They say the sky won’t be conquered by the weak and the frail…”

Is it worth compromising integrity for a watered down version of the truth? To get SOME sort of truth out rather than no truths at all? Is it worth working hard at something you believe is right to get a half-result, instead of no result if you decide to stand up?

What is the meaning of freedom? (again, I beg the question) Is bounded freedom truly freedom, or should we just call it something else instead of trying to give it a false label? Can you truly fly if your wings are just for show?

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The Political Web

I thank those who have posted words of comfort and support in the midst of this crazy fiasco. I am testimony that it is possible to remain calm, as the eye in the storm, by responding in a rational manner. Thanks to the big guy up there (and I don’t mean the leader of the country). The forum two nights ago was interesting, bringing together the country’s popular bloggers: Jeff Ooi, Tony Pua, Shahrizal, Nik Nazmi, Khoo Kay Peng (political analyst), Oon Yeoh and of course not forgetting Uncle Kit himself (Lim Kit Siang).

A host of pressing issues were brought up, but I think what was most relevant that people could bring home with them, was how the Internet is going to affect the next Elections. No doubt blog-hopping is now classified as a valid “pastime” by some people, and it will be no different come 2008/2009 during our Pilihanraya. People visit blogs and online news sites to get updated and alternative sources of information. They rely on opinion leaders in their various blogs.

According to Jeff Ooi, the Minister of Information gets two files sent to him at the end of each day to look through. The first is a file on mainstream media, the second on alternative media. In the second you have your online Malaysiakinis, blogs and opinions/comments of the public, I’m sure. These are read through diligently everyday. So imagine what sort of impact the Internet is going to have in local politics.

My advice is for those who are already blogging, to quit talking so much about what they’ve done today. People don’t really care about what colour hair dye you have on now. And even if they do, is it really all that important to publicise?

No, I hope that we would focus on issues. It doesn’t have to necessarily be related to the political atmosphere in the country, but talk about what interests you – religion, race, God, poverty, the list is endless. Think about what sort of change you might want to exact, if not in your generation, in the next to come. What sort of ideas for the blog hoppers, for your friends, if not the leaders of the country?

Here’s to the Internet.. and its great, great potential!

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Anger

I am angry.

At a multitude of things.

This is why disillusionment takes place.

The government has succeeded in yet again wiping out any hope that remains within its young generation, for the country. What is the point of standing up.

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Knowledge.. yeah right

The Prime Minister yesterday said that knowledge was the key to the nation’s growth. Sure, these ministers can go traipsing along on their little education journeys to schoolkids who don’t know a thing, making them believe that truly the government is serious about working towards knowledge, truth, seeking of wisdom and all that jazz.

When really, ask yourselves if the administration that we see today is one that consistently pushes towards an attitude of excellence? Is an administration that denies facts and figures one that is truly reflective of the road towards seeking knowledge? Or is it restricted knowledge, one that is bound by the constraints of what they dictate? Interpreting what knowledge is and what it is not – is silly and ridiculous. Worse, brushing off what they do NOT consider as knowledge – just because the government doesn’t agree – is childish and sounds very much like a schoolkid’s argument.

Let’s talk about Singapore since we’re on the warpath here. Look at the university rankings. Our supposed premier university UM has fallen by over 40 places this round of the Times Higher Education Supplement university ranks. It is now at position 192, while Malaysia’s highest scoring Uni is UKM (bravo, bravo *drily*) at 185. WOOHOO! We celebrate and congratulate ourselves, patting each other on our backs.

Meanwhile, Singapore sits smug at 19th position with their NUS.

Singapore can be condemned as a country that, through its detailed social engineering process, reeks of sterile and homogeneous people and townships. Their government plans out mostly everything for them, and therefore its people have been accused of being one-track minded, unwilling to think outside the box to cultivate creativity. We are clever to point fingers, but when it comes to true cultivation of knowledge and seeking Excellence, they beat us flat. They invest their money into their academicians at the university. They attract their foreign academic lecturers at research institutions and pay them well because they know they are worth it.

I am sadly ashamed at the contradictions of our leaders’ statements. Do they really listen to what they say? One day, they say that seeking knowledge is the key to our country’s success. Another day, they say that certain research is unreliable “just because” it contradicts official findings. THINK about that statement.

Knowledge seeking? Are they really doing this amongst its university students? The civil service? Amongst the public? Does the administration preach by example? Do they show their citizens that they are equally fascinated with new discoveries? Do they value knowledge, really?

Talk is cheap. Show me your actions and I’ll take you at your word.

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Relationship Problems

After having walked the sidewalks of Brickfields on a hot hazy day, I wonder how it is that people living side-by-side can know so little about the other. You have the various racial groups huddled together in a little country, but put a C within an I community and you stick out like a sore thumb. Worse, put a C within a conservative M area and you get stares like you’re wearing a bikini in broad daylight.

Brickfields is a hustle-and-bustle community, all sorts of smells and colours, the odd lady throwing birdseed to pigeons that scurry till the motorcycle engine roars into life and disperses them like feathers in the sky. Blaring music against trendy thickly-lined-eyed-ladies. This is a part of Malaysia that I appreciate, but why, amidst  all its diversity, do I feel alien?

It is natural for people to feel a sense of belonging amongst their own kind. Nevertheless the level of interest one takes in another community is telling of the degree of integration and assimilation into a larger society. That each community isolates itself with a set of cultural norms and values that cannot be pierced except upon forced entry (or research!) is not a good sign.

How many C’s fully appreciate the whole works of a M or I culture? And vice versa for each group. Is it skindeep friendship or are we able to ask those important life questions of our fellow neighbours without the fear of being accused as “disrupting national unity”?

Every relationship needs to be nurtured: how? By having open discussion when one is unhappy with the other, talking it out and explaining the situation till the other can understand based on fact and feeling. You do this without a hot head but in a calm, cool and collected manner. Any person with a friend or having been through a relationship will be able to tell you that. A relationship that fears to speak the truth, that cowers away behind a shield of false protection, with zipped mouths and a denial syndrome is a relationship doomed to fail.

So. Until we are ready and prepared to talk straight with the other, be open and frank in both the good and the bad things, I’m afraid that my cordiality is not a sign of unity. Indeed, the opposite is true.

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Masuk Kristianiti

The term “masuk Islam” is given to those who convert into Islam (in Malaysia anyway). I assume the term can be translated for conversion into Christianity. What does “convert” really mean? Is it about donning a gold cross around your neck? Holding a Bible in hand? Attending church on Sundays? No. But we face a different issue.

Farish Noor wrote: A recent media report has noted that all over North America this Ramadhan, Evangelical Christians will embark on a 30-day ‘Muslim Prayer Focus’. Supported by right-wing evangelical conservatives like the American National Association of Evangelicals and Youth With A  Mission, evangelical Christian leaders all over the USA will ask their followers to spend the next 30 days praying for Muslims to see the light and to find a place for Jesus in their
hearts.

Farish argues that in this day and age where Muslim-Christian tension is at its peak, Christians praying for 30 days for their fellow Muslims to accept Jesus into their lives – is an absolute no-no. After all, what worse action than blatantly fuelling paranoia and reinstating the barriers between religions? He concludes by saying it is an act of lunacy, arrogance and hypocrisy.

I certainly see where he is coming from. In fact, this has been on my mind recently. Christian missionaries have always been condemned as proselytising. They impose their views and beliefs onto others, not taking into consideration the culture and religion of those they preach to. Such dogmatic theories can only be taken as proud and patronising.

However, I offer two points of view. First, if this is the argument used to criticise Christianity, I would say that Islam is no different in its practical sense. Where Christianity preaches a solitary truth, so does Islam. And followers certainly hold strongly to something they perceive as truth. I cannot fault either religion for wanting to share their gospel with as much conviction as life can carry. Why not? It’s the truth, to each. Similarly, implementing Islam Hadhari in Malaysia reeks of the same spirit in which “proselytising” Christians carry out missions. Islamic principles can be viewed imposing onto a nation where 40% of its citizens are hardly Muslim. How then, can we condemn theological missionaries and yet practice policies that similary impose their religious views onto others?

My second response is that there is no such thing as a person who converts. If there is a God (and I certainly believe in one), then the converter is Him. Muslims or Christians, with however much strength they muster within themselves, will never be able to do the actual act of forcing a person to believe in one thing over the other. Sure, talking and preaching contribute to the process, but unless it is really a God who convicts, you cannot attribute it to a human’s doing.

My response to the article is that I don’t in fact believe that Christians on their 30-day prayer war are lunatic in any way. In fact, it seems that they are merely abiding by the truth by which they stand. Any Muslim would pray the same prayer for another to “masuk Islam”. Two sides of the same coin, brother. I shall have to think a little bit more about imposing religious principles on others – something people in power and position need to consider – in another post.

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leekuanyewmahathir

Old men who cannot rest

Who put their nations to the test

Who think they want to give their final best

But fail.

Old men with skin that sags

But blunt tongues that whisper, wag

Give no time for fools that lag

Except their sons.

Old men argue old debates,

Harping bridge and water rates,

Old friends’ mates but enemies hate,

Tomorrow’s fate.

Across the seas you are like me,

But views alike we cannot see,

Beat to the death – though we’d really be,

Same blood.

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Streets of London, streets of KL

by Ralph McTell
Have you seen the old man
In the closed-down market
Kicking up the paper,
with his worn out shoes?
In his eyes you see no pride
And held loosely at his side
Yesterday’s paper telling yesterday’s news

So how can you tell me you’re lonely,
And say for you that the sun don’t shine?
Let me take you by the hand and lead you through the streets of London
I’ll show you something to make you change your mind

Have you seen the old girl
Who walks the streets of London
Dirt in her hair and her clothes in rags?
She’s no time for talking,
She just keeps right on walking
Carrying her home in two carrier bags.

In the all night cafe
At a quarter past eleven,
Same old man is sitting there on his own
Looking at the world
Over the rim of his tea-cup,
Each tea last an hour
Then he wanders home alone

And have you seen the old man
Outside the seaman’s mission
Memory fading with
The medal ribbons that he wears.
In our winter city,
The rain cries a little pity
For one more forgotten hero
And a world that doesn’t care

About a month ago I had the opportunity of tagging along downtown to the streets of KL. A pastor set up a street ministry approximately 8 years ago that now runs every Saturday for the homeless and  poor. Having personal conversations with these people reminded me that indeed, these are the most marginalised of society. They live literally from hand to mouth, live in bus stations and on lonely sidewalks. Most are unfortunately drug addicts, and have little chance at getting long-term employment. It is difficult to gain the trust of society once you throw it away at will. I thought about many things.

First, that once they are released from prison, or are convicted of drug abuse/pushing, or leave from a half-way house, they need a second round of socialisation. Sociologist wrote about the resocialisation process of a prisoner, and this is another sort of entrapment. They are caught in a cycle that they cannot get out of. Yet, the best way of showing love to a fellow “neighbour” on earth is to give an opportunity, time and time again. Such cycles take such great willpower to break, and most give up, choosing instead temporary pleasure over long-term pain (I did my thesis on such a theory, but it would bore you to death).

Second, that the gazillions of dollars spent by the government has done little to turn people away from drugs. Sure, you have the regular anti-dadah and anti-smoking campaigns running each year, but how effective are these, really? Does anyone actually do a post-mortem to check whether these campaigns and advertising money work? Do they make statistical comparisons between the periods before and after campaigns have been carried out? Plus, might I add that the government uses such Horribly Old-School advertising methods to get their message across. It Does Not Work I Tell You. The target group does not give a d*** about the fact that their bodies will rot to death.

The government needs to study the motivations of druggies, not scare them away with the effect and consequence of drugs. Negative reinforcement does not work in this case, as this segment of society is already so dejected and suicidal. You think they’re going to listen to your regular radio jingles and look at taxi banner advertisements?

My final thought was a theological one. Talking to a drug addict recently released from jail (who promptly went to get hooked on drugs all over again) was interesting. He was a Catholic from childhood, believes in Jesus, has parents who constantly pray for him that he’ll quit drugs, and is absolutely sincere about wanting to stop – except he admits that his willpower is too weak… He says “One day, one day…” It pained me to see this soul so desperate but so weak. This is the epitome of what the divide between soul and flesh is. Paul says in the Bible that “what I do not want to do I do, but that which I should do I do not”, or something to that effect. This brought upon the question of whether this person’s soul was saved or not. Is one whose heart is for Christ but whose body fails him terribly – able to call himself a child of God? I hope to death for his sake.

If it is really the poor and marginalised in our world we want to honestly take care of, let’s for a minute or two forget about paper and computer work. Let’s for a moment be out there where it really counts, standing a foot away from heroin-inflicted men, showing that truly this is what reaching out is all about. Government policies may fail and falter but the human touch can do this much. Kudos to the Streetfeeding Team!

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Animal Farm

Orwell wrote a long time ago that “all are born equal, but some are more equal than others”. In his book, the pigs took over the animal farm, in an amusing play of characters and dialogue – all pointing towards the failure of communism. Although the tale speaks of the danger of overthrowing the government in seeking a more equal society, themes are still relevant today. In particular, you observe the horrors of a totalitarian regime – one that dictates rules and regulations ‘just because’, and with no further explanation necessary.

In the book, the character ‘Squealer’ is able to convince the animals that it was for their sake that the pigs (the designated leaders) ate most of the apples and drank most of the milk, that leadership was “heavy responsibility” and therefore the animals should be thankful for their leader Napoleon. In essence, being in a position of leadership allows you to do stupid things and at the same time convince the people that you’re really doing it for their sake.

Oh, spare me the laughs!

Now, does this sound all too familiar? Is it for our sakes that a portion of society gets to eat more apples and drink more milk? Hmm, perhaps we will need some logic lessons here if this is the argument put forward. The slice of the pie is never equal. The pigs have managed to convince the rest of us animals in this farm that this is the way it’s going to be for a long time yet, and that is for the GOOD of the people.

No arguing, no talking about it, because it is a sensitive topic. One can not ever argue with Napoleon, or ANY of his little Napoleons. Anyone belonging to the Napoleon/swine family is considered sacred. Any relative – through blood or marriage – can eat more apples and drink more milk.

And so it is in Malaysia. All races are born equal but some are more equal than others.

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